today, i FINALLY got my shoe back from Buzz. it was nicely done. tanx besty. =) finished sch at 11 50 ++. headed strait to Yana's huse. she, as i expected, jus woke up. u poor tired gerl. =) chilled over at her huse till abt 4 before heading to WM. watch dvd. " The Pink Panther " we cooked. ahakz. ouh wait. I cook. hee. ok ok. so yana helped too. =Pp it was FUN even if it was jus chillin & walkin aimlessly ard WM wit her. tanx for the day gerlfren. luf u loads. =*

was sitting down in my room doin' nutin. staring at the monitor screen while humming to the tune played on my WMP. i felt emotional all of a sudden n i turn to this box where i keep all my past. jus by lookin at the box, memories, both sweet & painful gushed into my mind.

I always knew looking back on the tears

would make me laugh, but I never knew

looking back on the laughs would make me cry.

enuff of the sappy part. my intention wasnt to blabber abt the sad past. when i was look thru the stuff in the box, i stumbled upon my old diary. lol. during tat tym, i wasnt so advance. i still had no technology, no computer yet. so i turn to my DIARY. ahakz. i tot reading my "entries" in 2002 was a bad idea. haha. but i was wrong. i was warmly greated by laughters. lol. i read of the paranoid side of myself when i tot EVERYBODY hated me. frenz n family n god. ahakz. inside, there are also stories abt my past "puppy-love". i too, discovered things which i never thought i knew - ryte haris? lol. and my handwritting. its ATTROCIOUS i tell ya. *faints* [ not tat my present handwritting is any better. ahakz. ] i had a bit of difficulties tryin to read some of the words. ahaha. but still i managed to read. =) and coincidentally, my diary used to be a " PINK PANTHER " notebook. ahaha.

last week or so, i bought a few new stuffs to add to my wardrobe. =)


[ the few stuffs i bought. now im broke. urgh!! ]

[ the shoe i was talking about. =) ]

[ haris, if u dun believe. there it is. about u & ur past her. =Pp ]

[ my utterly ATTROCIOUS handwritting. * faints* ]

[ my no-longer-in-service PINK PANTHER diary. lol. ]

take cre everyone. haf a gd nyte. do tag me. =)
toodles..

choose truthfully please. lol.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=ila

courtesy of afiqah's blog. =)

i read this while i was surfing thru a webby. lol. enjoy people.
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Suggestions For Women To Respond To Pickup Lines

Haven't I seen you someplace before?
Yeah, that's why I don't go there anymore.

He: So what do you do for a living?
She: Female impersonator.

Is this seat empty?
Yes, and this one will be too if you sit down.

So, wanna go back to my place?
Well, I don't know. Will two people fit under a rock?

I'd like to call you. What's your number?
It's in the phone book.
But I don't know your name.
That's in the phone book too.

What sign were you born under?
No Parking.

I know how to please a woman.
Then please leave me alone.

I want to give myself to you.
Sorry, I don't accept cheap gifts.

I can tell that you want me.
Ohhhh. You're so right. I want you... to leave.

Hey, baby, What's your sign?
Stop.

Hey cutie, how 'bout you and I hitting the hot spots?
Sorry, I don't date outside my species.

May I see you pretty soon?
Why? Don't you think I'm pretty now?

Your body is like a temple.
Sorry, there are no services today.

I'd go through anything for you.
Good! Let's start with your bank account.

I would go to the end of the world for you.
Yes, but would you stay there?

Your place or mine?
Both. You go to yours and I'll go to mine.

Q: What's your name sexy?
A: Taken!

Q: Do you believe in love at first sight or do you want me to walk by again?
A: Yeah, but this time don't stop!

Q: I think you're the best looking girl in here.
A: Really? Well, I'd better go find the best looking guy then, hadn't I!

He: Your legs go clear up to your a**.
She: Most peoples' do!

Q: Can I buy you a drink?
A: Go ahead, but only if you buy my boyfriend one too!

You look like a dream.
Response: Go back to sleep.

He: What it's like being the most beautiful girl in the bar?
She: What it's like being the biggest liar in the world?

I can see forever in your eyes.
Response: But all I can see is never in yours.

I looked up beautiful in the thesaurus today and your name was included.
Response: Thanks! Hey, I saw your name next to jerk.

Suggestions For Men To Women's Rejection

If you are looking at a girl and she says : What are you looking at?
Say : I thought you were good looking, but I was mistaken.

He: Would you like to dance?
She: Not with you.
He: Oh, come on. Lower your standards a little, I just did.

He: Do you wanna dance?
She: Yeah but not with you!
He: You must have misunderstood me, I said you look fat in those pants!

was away for a "camp" at one of my gerlfrenz's huse. lol. so much for "camp". ahakz. nah, its a sleep-over. =) we stayed up till 6 45 am watchin an bollywood box-office hit, " Kal Ho Na Ho ". even though i watch it lyk a million tyms alredi, i still cried. can't help it. ahakz. in the midst of the show, [the part where its wasnt so important & the part where it was boring ] me n my gerlfrenz started toking about relationship. i duno wat made us tok abt it but we did & this is wat we talked about [ correct me if im wrong eh gerl ] :

" A gerl, is considered lyk a princess. they shudn't

do anything. during the tyms when kings

were rulling, the lady of the household

does nuting. the king makes sure tat the

lady is given the royal treatment. so not at

any point of tym shud the gerl chase after

the guy. if thats the case,then something

is wrong. if a gerl chases after a guy, it

gives the impression tat he [the guy] can

find a replacement anytime. it also shows

tat the guy doesnt reli love u & tat he has

oder gerls other then u.

Find a guy that chases after u not the oder way

round. find a guy that waits for u no matter how

long it takes & no matter wat it takes jus

to be with u. if he gives up, then he's not the one.

take forexample, the animal world. the female

species is awiz the ugly one but y izit that its

possible for 2 male species to fight each oder

jus to get the female species? coz that the way

things shud be. guy chase gerl not gerl chase guy.

Dun rush into a relationship. remember this.

a guy can say that he loves u and

tat u're his only one and stuff but u haf to

know how to differenciate the difference

between the truth & the lies. y waste

ur tears, time, energy & emotions chasing a guy?

it shud be the oderway round.

Ur love fate lies in gods hand. if the two of u

are fated to be together ten together the two of u

shall be but u cant just sit and wait &

expect god to bring the two of you together.

u nid to make any effort into making it a reality. "

it got me thinking for a while but i shove it aside after tat coz at that point of tym, the show was much more important. lol. and now tat i haf nutin to do, im sharing it with everyone, both guys & gerls. im not implying this to anyone but gerls, if u r in this situation, do stop & think abt wat is written above. for the guys, be sincere & dun play a gerls heart out like a soccer ball. u can chuse to reflect on this or not but its avisable to do so.

i haven had my lunch n dinner so i shud be goin now. my tummy's chatting, " FOOD. FOOD. FOOD. " ahakz. take cre frenz & readers. haf a gd nyte ya'll. =)
toodles..

jus wanna say : " I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY "
u shud noe who u are. =)

nyte everyone.. -.- zZzZzZzZzZ

how can a person's love life sux to the point where she's in a desperation state? i jus dun geddit. when i dun show enuff concern, i get DISSED. tat i understand. but wat wat i dun understand is that i get DISSED even when i show concern. wtf. izint it better for me to show concern ten me NOT showing concern? urgh. my life sux ppl. it sux BIG tym.

this few days, somethings not ryte. i jus haf a freakin' feelin tat my history, is repeating itself. where haf i gone wrong? wat mistake did i do tis tym round? its frustrating. im neither sure nor unsure of wat is the current situation.

yes, u werk & u're tired but EVERYDAY?? smting's amiss. previously u werk too. afternoon shift. still, u had time & energy to talk longer with me. y the drastic/sudden change?

the period of tym whereby u didnt contact me & spent less talk-tym with me, it due to her. so izit the same tis tym round but only tat this tym its an anoder her? i duno. i reli dun. i can only assume & predict coz u're not tellin me anything.

" am i not gud enuff for u? dun i deserve to haf ur love? am i not up to ur expectation? am i not fit enuff for u to call me yours? "

if only we cud trade places for a day. u'll be me & i'll be u. tat'll be an eye-opener. too brain exhausted to cont'd blogging.

gd morning ya'l..
since i haf tym to kill while waiting for the tym to leave for sch,
i shall make anoder entry. this tym, i'll blog abt the tym i went
ROCK CLIMBING..!! =) it was MAJORLY fun & thrilling..!!
apart from getting scratches on my legs, i absolutely enjoy every
minute of it. the ppl i went with made it even better. i sincerly tanx
Yana & Fyza for asking me to tag along & yana, in future if there anymore
exciting & adventurous trip like this one, drag me along eh?! =)

the trip was on Tuesday, 21 Feb 2006.

i finished school abt 10 plus i think. [ cant rmbr la ] got change at
the mrt toliet & i met fyza at phonix lrt station. from there, we're gonna
board 67 to reach to bukit timah nature reserve. the weather was
perfect for climbing - sunny yet cloudy at the same tym. me & fyza
met the rest at the bus-stop at The Salvation Army. they we alredi there.
[ sori guys for making u guys wait.. sori many2.. =) ]

we set off as soon as we, me & fyza reached. the distance from the bus-stop to the actual
spot is not tat far but it far enuff to warm my body up. lol. in total, there
were 3 gerls & 5 guys. Yana, Fyza & me. Yan, Saiful, Faizal, Herdy & Ahmad.
they were all camp instructor. so im the odd one. but never did i, at any point
of tym felt left out. they are a bunch of kecorable ppz..!! i've met herdy, saiful
& faizal the day before so at least i had some interactions with them.

the deeper we went into the woods, the connection was getting weaker
and alast, my reception went dead. urgh. cudnt received ANY msg.
after abt 10 mins of walking, we reached to the spot were we're gonna
hike. its a fascination to watch them prepare the equipments. u noe y
its a fascination for me? coz, this is my 1st tym! lol. anyway, faizal had to
climb to the top 1st to reel in the rope or smting like tat.

it was humid. even by sitting down, sweat was trickling down my temple.
i snap a few snap shot while waiting. lol. tats me. awiz wit my cam. =)

1st up was ahmad. ten it was saiful. nx up was yan. the guys went up 1st.
the gerls were deciding who to go up 1st & fyza was 1st. followed by me
ten yana. fyza made it to the top. bravo gerl..!! =] im so proud of u.
i almost made it to the top but my legs were shaking..!! my leg were shaking
NOT becoz i was afraid ok!! i duno y i was shaking.. it felt wobbly. ahakz.
from the ground, the view was diff from the view when u're on top. its
easier to see than to do. ryte gerls? lol. i didnt realise tat my knees was
bleeding. only wen i step foot on the ground tit yana notice. it wasnt tat bad
la. jus cuts n a few small bruises.

headed to al-azhar, near Beauty World for dinner. i had nasi pattaya.
it was a very scrumptious meal. of coz la, HUNGRY mah. lol. talk cock
ten we went off at about 916pm like tat. reached hum at 1030pm.

overall, it was an experience i will never forget, EVER. lol.
once again, i thank u guys for dragging me along..!! =)

picture to proof to u guys tat i ACTUALLY climb the tingy. =)


[ walking to the "camp" site.. ]


[ wat i'm gonna climb.. *yikes* ]


[ the TOUGH gerl.. =PpPp ]


[ blom naik muke da cramp.. o.O" ]


[ tats faizal.. he climb up 1st to secure the rope.. ]


[ yan & saiful - giving directions.. ]


[ tats ahmad.. he cud be a national climber BUT he's lazy.. wat a waste ]


[ fyza in action.. u GO GERL!! ]


[ ME in ACTION. lol. ]


[ the scracthes n bruises.. =( ]


[ took this while waiting for yana.. ]


[ in them i trust my life with. ahakz. ]

[ me & the surrounding nature.. ]

- THE END -

dun forget to tag ya'll.. =) toodles..

okai. next up. wild wild wet trip on Monday, 20 Feb 2006.

eventhough i was lookin forward for this trip, i didnt wake up extra early
on monday. in fact, i woke up a bit late. lol. maybe i used up my energy
during the sunday's event. anyway. i planned not to go to the morning class.
instd of mrali, [the teacher for tat subject] anoder teacher will be teaching.
i reckon tat they wudnt be teaching. turns out i was ryte. wat a waste of tym.
i eventually went to school because flash was alredi ready to leave for sch wen
i said tat i didnt wan to go to sch. so, as heavy-butt as i am, i dragged my butt
to the toilet & showered.

we - me, zu, jeff & flash reached sch ard 817 am. ten we went our seperated ways. zu & jeff, me & flash. we are in 2 diff groups. my lesson on tat day was VERY boring. did some calculation tingy. attempt a few Ques for a few mins n off we went to the
canteen. we went up to the class at ard 1030 am, 30 mins xtra from wat the teacher
gave us. ahakz. the teacher cudnt care less. lol. lesson ended at 11 15am.

the four of us ten headed to W.M. jeff wanted to change money. RM 50.
he got only SG$21. ahakz. zu went hunting for slippers coz she forgot to bring hers.
window shop at Tom & Stephanie for a while. bumped into Tini who was waiting for
her boifren. =)

headed back to school. charld was alredi in school waiting for us. zu & i rushed to get
changed coz the bus was alredi there.

in the bus, me & zu took lots of snap. ahakz. biase la. cam-whore la katekn. =PpPp
n i got bus-sick after tat. so i listen to my mp3 n shut my eyes.

when we got there, i took more snapshots. i didnt swim. got a bit of tan, jus a BIT jus by
slping throughout the 4 hrs there. i duno who took the pics but they were in my cam.
felt sticky so i decided to take a shower. felt refreshed after tat. took some more pics.
time was up and we walked to the bus. at exactly 430, the bus left for school. tis tym i
didnt slp. i took more pics. ahaha. *vain me.*

reached school at ard 455 close to 5pm. met yana, fyza, saiful, herdi & faizal. they were
yana & fyza's fren. too bad my cam batt died. i wud have taken more pics ten.

ibu, [yana's mom] gave us a lift hume. reached hum at ard 10 plus.
i went online for a while and off to dreamland. he called. i answered. again, we talked
only for a few mins. haiz. wish ur werk izint tough. ten u wudnt be tired & cn tok longer.

tats roughly how the day went by. pics for you guys. =)








[ me & zu in the bus : CAM-WHORING =P ]


[ my class advisor - Miss Hong ]


[ top row from left : zus, dam, me, charld, zu. bottom row : flash, jeff ]




[ WILD WILD WET..!! ]


[ this is how Wild Wild Wet looks lyk.. ]


[ the hunks of my class.. o.O" lol. ]


[ Vanity is lyk a drug & i NID it. =Pp lol. ]




[ squeaky clean..! =D ]






[ snappin' the tym away.. ]

[ snap-shots in the bus.. ]


[ me & Mr Lau.. ]



[ snapshots me me to & from Wild Wild Wet. =) ]

- THE END -

okai. im here to flashback on wat happen during my absence. im gonna write one entry for each day.
so let me start off with Sunday, 19 Feb 2006.

• woke up at ard 6 am. i noe its early. lol.
• blog for a while.
• ten i wen back to slp. had anoder hour ++ of rest.
• was up ard 8 30++ i tink. cudnt slp anymore. anxious i think. lol.
• ironed wat i wanted to wear. jean + spag + blazer.
• hit the showers after i finished ironing.
• felt very refreshed after tat.
• i got ready. make-up n hair.
• was completely ready at 10 30am.
• left hume & met besty, NISA at j.e.
• took the shuttle bus to IMM.
• upon reaching the venue, my heart started to thump again.
• strangely, i didn't felt nervous before arriving. only AFTER i saw the BOX, ten i felt butterflies.
• didnt join the Q strait away.
• loitered ard for a while to see how it goes.
• loitered till a gerl insist tat i join the Q before the Q gets longer.
• finally my anoder besty, YANA came.
• surprisingly, i met my fren who was also there.
• he gave me some pointers & for tat i THANK YOU HASNIEL. =)
• he stayed on to give me support.
• panick for a while coz i DID NOT bring my NIRC!!
• but thank god ez-link can be used as proof.
• the waiting was torturous i tell ya. urgh.
• had an 1/2 hr break but was too nervous to eat anything heavy.
• had some O.C.K courtesy of yana. was thirsty throughout the waiting.
• fyza came but i had to go back up.
• throughout the whole day, i practise my speech & deciding on wat to chuse. either sad, happy or angry.
• finally i got in. was briefed abt the procedures.
• from the briefing area, we shift to the holding area, tat was where we got our script.
• was deciding which emotion to conquer. eventually i chose SAD.
• made some frenz along the way. [ Ej, Sani, Lina, Ira i think & some oders which i didnt manage to catch their names ]
• we only had 10 mins to memorise our scripts.
• i was cracking my head i tell ya. urgh.
• i was emotionally prepared for my turn but the people ard me made me too comfortable till i lost my concentration. grr.
• up nx was my turn. my heart goes THUMP. THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.
• i was SHAKING..!! u cud see the nervousness right through me.
• i was SO RELIEVED when i finished.i duno how i did but my frenz said it was okai.
• i hope i'll make it through. *cross-fingers*
• when i finish my scene, my gerlfrenz - nisa, fyza & yana cheered. tanx gerls! =)
• ahakz. tat put a smile on my face.
• met my anoder besty, BUZZ at his werkplace. jus drop by to say hi.
• headed to J.Entertaiment Mac with yana & fyza. nisa left for CCK.
• chilled, laughed & cam-whore till abt 10 i think, cant rmber.
• took the train hume with yana.
• was bushed when i reached hum.
• he called. talked for a few mins & we ended the converstion.
• he went to HIS la-la land & i went off to MY la-la land.

basically, tats how my day was. he are some pics to go along wit the entry. =)

[ stressed up even before joining the Q.. was on d pone with yana.. ]

[ the set of the event.. ]

[ me with the form during the 1/2 hr break.. ]

[ the briefing area.. nisa snap this photo.. =) ]

[ at the holding area after the script was taken away.. i wasnt slping ok!! ]

[ next up.. ME! was fixing the mic.. ]

[ last words form the crew.. he happens to be hasniel's bro.. ]

[ me, after the audition..!! RELIEVED!! ]

[ me & hasniel after we finished auditoning.. ]

[ me & fyza's nephew.. he's SO ADORABLY CUTE..!! ]

[ cam-whoring despite being in the toilet.. =Pp ]

[ parap-pap-pap-pap.. i'm loving it..!! ]

[ THANK YOU u guys.. ur presence meant alot to me.. =) ]