got up extra early today.. cudnt get back to slp..
neither did i get much slp yesterday.
tanx to me crying myself to slp, i've got swollen &
puffy eyes and worst, blocked nose. urgh.
ystrdae's conversation's still playin in my head..

it hurts to noe tat he's still holding tight to wat i said in the past..
for god's sake, i said it coz i was still pissed with the [L] tingy..
it's over now. like u said, she's a past.
which gerl wudnt be hurt & pissed if they were to find out that
the person they love, love anoder person..???

but i gave u the benefit of a 2nd chance..
doesn't that proves something..?? it proves tat im
still waiting for the day for US to be a reality..
think abt it.. besides, if i've got no hope for US,
wud i still be contcting u & waitin for ur call every nyte
and hoping tat u will msg me jus to let me noe tat im on ur mind..?

i duno wat else to do to make u realise tat i want u.. can't u tell..?
did i not make it clear enuff to let u see/noe tat I LOVE YOU..?
im lost for words. my energy are consumed trying to convince, assure
and reassure u to believe tat i DO haf faith in US. believe me.. plz..

tell me, if u're so certain tat i haf no faith in us, y r u still with me?
im not asking u to leave me & i DUN WAN u to leave me..
u're still with me coz u haf faith in us. ryte? tats exactly wat im doin.
im holding on to u coz i do haf faith in us. i've been waitin for u
for the longest tym ever so y shud i stop now..?
i noe tat u're worth the wait & tats exactly wat im gonna do. WAIT.

im goin for the tingy i told u about. i need ur support weder u
approved of it or not. wateva the outcome is, i hope tat u'll be
by my side. i noe tat u dun like _______ as a gf but this is my passion.
u noe wat its like to haf a passion n going for it.
if i make it thru, i hope i'll see u by my side. if u're not by my side,
tat shows where it stand in ur life & most importantly, it shows
how much i mean to u. if i make it thru, i assure u, nuting's gonna change.

n yes i do nid a bf but that bf will haf to be u..

" im sori abt wat i said but can u plz drop it. i've given u the 2nd chance.
thatt proves smting. it proves tat i still haf hope for us. it's true i did say
wat i said but tats becoz of [L]. it over now.."